Mother's grief for her mistake.

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Thursday, 22 October 2009 at 01:08

Indescribable, dreadful, deep
Sensations of sorrow breach my heart and soul
No mother ever means to hurt her child
Yet there are times when it does happen 
It seems an unforgivable act
An act of shame 
An act of mistrust leading to distrust
I once cradled you and you were comforted and protected
Now you have grown and are your own person
I still need to comfort and protect you
You are my angel from Heaven
The answer to the prayers of so long
You were the first of many to come
And you are my light from God
Your pain is my pain 
Your joys are mine
You were born to be forever loved 
Never to be shamed , hurt, upset
Never to be thrown, never to be abused
Always to feel secure and always to be nurtured
Your laughter makes the room tingle
Your eyes light up with glee
When you uttered the sad words of pain
I was crushed and I would take it all back 
To see you smile
To feel your cuddle
And be my baby princess once again
Your mother adores you 
Your mother thinks you are the best 
Thing that has ever happened to her
When you were a mere 1o months and we were all
That was left
The tear that fell from my cheek you wiped away
The hand of a innocent and sensitive child
So now my princess stand firm and tall
We shall not allow ourselves to fall
We must continue the fight together
For the flight is not the choice of a winner.
We must strive together
So, we can enjoy the fruits of our suffering later
For whatever happens between you and I
I will still forever be the Mother 
Who will love, support, endure and ride
The troubled waves with you.
To eventually walk beside you toward the enduring Great White Light.
I Love you forever , dear child. Forgive me.
Lorraine Nur ~NSSRLB~

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