My Soul, My Life

My evening star Where are you? I am in need to see Your twinkling glitter from up high That guides me. Where are you my shining star? Don't leave me now I am hurting I am crying I am bleeding My heart is torn My heart aches That you are never going to be As close as I want you to be That you will always be ,just a shine A twinkle, a glimmer From afar, you guide me That's all you can do For that is a magic and a gift But that I can't hold you nor touch you And I can never keep you As my special star For you were made for all To see and enjoy Like all stars map the pathways Shining star, map mine And show me towards the one who looks at you Like I do ~LorraineNur~

As time spans It shall never wait Take up your opportunities As they present themselves For all that is blessed,is good Time shall move on And you shall get older And the opportunities will pass You cannot retrieve,nor can you regret Your decisions Your choices Your life is limited You have to make the very best Of all the offerings that Heaven bestows Take the best from all that presents itself Your choices based on love and also on intelligence Rationality and wisdom Love should never hurt With it comes many blessings With it comes many miracles As love is a magical potion Which can consume you And make you drunk That time means nothing The place is mysterious A secret of life A recipe of happiness As time moves on ~Lorraine Nur~

With love, it does not matter what the relationship is To help,to give, to share, to enjoy From a distance or close Love is binding for all With love, it does not matter what plans you make To be blessed each day with a loved one To share each day with family To give with all A gift of love Not compromising nor holding back Be free to love and give your full heart And no strings attached No ownership No ties binding Love advocates freedom of feeling Nurturing this is essential For a peaceful soul Capture moments when timely Smitten by precious memories Create everlasting clips of visual love Whispering magical words of love As a forest of vastness As an ocean span As horizons never fade Make LOVE the anchor in LIFE Appreciate and not deviate Be grateful and give thanks For you have been blessed with a gift From Heaven ~LorraineNur~

I once had a love I waited for I waited for seven long years My love said he’d be here I waited each year Hopeful and excited The seven years have passed And so is the love As all fairytales must end The prince never came I once had a love Over the seas proclaimed his unselfish devotion to me alone Oh foolish love Decayed and never grew through seven forbidden years all hope never renewed So, now there is a new love that I hope seven years it does not take for it to eventuate Though, I am uncertain If it will be true. ~LorraineNur~

Love, my love is a feeling that transcends To all I meet with honour I share Love, the emotion that can create Such disillusions and complexities Love, a giving from a pure heart Ending not, forever engraved Love, my gift for your love in return Is not the prerequisite I love for His sake I share for His sake I need for His sake I engulf the love, for His sake. Love, a feeling that has no definition Love, an abode for rest and peace Love, an incredible gift to bestow Love, acceptance and gratitude Love, is the circle that binds us all Love, will uplift when we know how Love, my love I give to you Please nurture and fuel Purely and innocently Love, clean and fresh Will overcome us Make us delirious Make us drunk Make us shy Make us high Make us love more and more Love has no ending and no beginning Love is just a feeling but That feeling is a nourishment of Your heart and soul. ~Lorraine Nur~ Love,Peace & Light

Lessons shared  Love arised How am I then not surprised Afterall the words spoken No factual evidence Of all the stories revealed Not basic commonsense How can I not wonder What then becomes of me? The time I needed to hear your voice To hear your words of comfort The time I most needed you, You were too busy in your lifestyle To offer any support Yet in a challenge of thoughts and choice A quick revert was accepted A quick cut off and cure Yet, love is mentioned and an acceptance made Sure as soon as a moment arised A judgement fell!  I am in need but I am not handicapped I am hoping for better But I am not desperate I am realistic I cannot survive on mere words  Dreams and uncommited vows I make my plans and make the changes My emotions rule my head at times I feed off your love  I feed off your attention , so gentle I want you always beside me And that is one reality That will never be For somebody that belongs to everybody I need somebody, just for...

Tomorrow,when the sun rises Everything will be different The days will seem longer The sunshine less bright Butterflies will stay hidden The green glass will fade The air will slug The skies turn grey Tomorrow, when a new day starts All that glowed will dull All speech will be a blur Each step will be in wonder Each thought will be of you Every moment has been in waiting Until the wait, too much to bear Opened a window to a future Of constant waiting Of waiting with a hope Which may never appear The moments of wasting in ardent wait Left scars of insecurity One soul learnt a new love Which love descended And soon went away Unfortunate and sorrowful Did then the mate, muddled Confused and baited Turned on another source of solace To uncover some comfort for a moment Not because of nafs But for care Not able to hurt and feeling compassion Without judgement Tomorrow emerges and the drone of life Whispers.

I treasure my time alone Yet,I am miserable by myself I would be enjoying some company If it would be the kind that I like How I hate it when that missing feeling emerges Because I remember all the good times However to compromise myself and principles I would choose to face the lonliness How I dislike the challenge To ponder on options and choices The energy used zaps me And I remain muddled I convince myself that it is for my benefit To sit hear and lavish the time alone Yet, I really don't want to be by myself at all In defiance would I gather myself and wage A warfare on silence and lonliness Only to learn, I have gained nothing I must then sit alone to ponder The effects of irrational behaviour The coming back to settle on one self Sitting alone and yearning A whole more than zero. LorraineNur

Oh the woes of life Leaving behind trails of bittersweetness As if a melancholy drifter Never able to settle. I travel as a seeker Searching for a truth That I believe exist Among the clans of humanity I search for the light in the midst of darkest moments In the serenity of the night In the peaceful hours of dawn The rising sun beckons the new start The journey unending Never shall I give up My serach for the love The energy of life Enough for me till I return To bear with all woes of life