Conscious reality plus probability

Anger overcame me as I sat and listened
Words which did not connect and did not make sense
Words that contradicted and sometimes sounded so cold
I wondered about human nature
I tried so hard to understand
Not to make excuses but sincerely tried to become
Empathic and compassionate
I made a conscious decision
To bask in positivity
To create and bubble myself in an atmosphere of glee
I would bounce off negativity and protect myself from it's ill effects
I told myself to always remain calm and collected
Not hasty to react
I promised to be good to myself and love myself
That I could then spread this joy from within to the outer realms of my world
I realised that all this takes a conscious efforts to be agreeable and open
To never waver
In order to withstand all the woes
I need to sustain me
Then I would have the mustered strength
To glow as a lamp of light
Alas' the moment when the last energy strand remains
A blast of heated and senseless attack
Diminshes me to a weak flame of a match
And the anger invaded to explode and blast
A resounding bellow forced through me
To vindicate and emboss my rights
Never to be imposed upon nor criticised for doing a right
For caring and sharing my time and energy
To helplessness and innocence
A nurturing chance seemed ridiculed
And also a foolish notion erased
Sometimes, the calm will relent to a spot of needed harshness
Hence, no where is free from challenges unless I
Enter the bubble and remain in it forever.
I shall take up the challenges and inspite of hurt
Inspite of stresses, inspite of imperfections,inspite of negativity
Inspite of oppositions and lack of sincerity
I want to do my best, give my best
Knowing that it will be the end winner
For nothing started with good intentions will ever fail
All goodness and wisdom shall be seen
And the ultimate end must and should be
Peace.Love.Justice.

LorraineNur

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