Disillusion impersonation

 

I know I must do what I must, yet it is hard tearing away. But for my best sake and self, I must do it soon.
Although I will be on my own once more,
I tried and gave the best I could.
I cannot any more be drained
For there are many more who need me to be
The prime and fit
Soul I aim.
I gave and gave
I didn't think to take much
I gave and gave my all
With no thought of the effects to them and me
I gave and gave and saw
Nothing but just taking and taking
From my soul.
Zappers and Givers
I hear the terms alot
Zappers , keep taking and drowning us in with them
I try to stay afloat but now I am almost drowning
My lungs are bursting for air
I struggle in the depths and the waves
Are huge and over powering
Sometimes , there seems to be a calm
But , now I know , that was
The calm before the storm.
My heart , burdened
The thought is a burden
To make any move is a burden
To sit and wait is a burden
I have so much to do,
I tried and tried
But what I saw ,
Only I was trying.
I gave and gave ,
I forfeited and sacrificed
My hopes are now dashed and the weight is drawing me under.
I am sorry, no depression any more for me to see and hear.
I cleansed and it never became clear
Never clear enough to allow the light in
The light travels and goes through, no open door did it find.
You have fallen from the sky and died.
You have chosen your path.
With you, don't seek joy, you said.
I was trying to share what joy I had.
Darkness, only darkness.
Sadness , is the cloak you wear.
Artificial vision and mission,
To be the best in life
To offer the best of yourself,
That the proof lies in the amount of friends
And great career,
With no economical troubles
And no worries.
A soul measures how much love we feel and transfers this
Through thought, action and words.
A positive energy emerges and a shining , smiling face.
Don't hide behind the facade of intelligence and intellectual capacities
To justify or nullify
For in the event when the grudges emerge, all that flew out the window.
Lorraine Nur

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