My Soul, My Life

When I look at you When I see your face All my anger fades I melt There is something about your persona Your charisma and your aura That binds and holds me To hear you is a breath of life When in anger, disappointment In frustration of lost causes I try to delete you from my memory I erase all effects of what Reminds me of you I fail to feel better Because you are engraved in my heart And, then I see your face I melt And all I can then feel is, LOVE ~LorraineNur~

Nobody really wants to know Nor make any effort to grow In all difficulties It’s too easy To shun responsibilities In order to be provoked One gives permission to invoke In most cases Sad as it is The ones that say I love you Are not always true Because LOVE is a feeling Not a mere greeting LOVE is to prove That you make the move To become one And when that’s done You will surely see That LOVE is to be. ~Lorraine Nur~

Once mankind used senses and heart Now, mankind has been deafened and hard Mankind chooses not to hear The calling of nature’s clear I once had an angel hearer Now he has chosen to disappear He used to laugh and love with me But behold, poisoned he now doesn’t see He used to feel and understand What I sent from deep heart’s bent Angels like to speak to the heart of the pure Not contaminated or unsure Angel’s whisper to offer love Because the order comes from above Angel seekers must be wary The devils are also many Once you hear the angel’s voices Make sure to protect yourselves from vices The only soiled thoughts are the ones That you put in your minds The angels whispers speak so softly Affects the heart and soul most purely So, if you want to always hear them Make sure you also like them Never ever disown them Never ever disbelieve in them Once, the angel’s talk with man It will fever the bodies but cool the hearts The ones that know shall never part ...

On this Earth I am left To walk and to help On this Earth for so long I have been wandering The lone soul The searching soul Each soul bears a signature An energy marking This is consistent  and It will be recognised By the same energy The frequencies charged do bear The same radiated light This energy Is a form of companionship This energy is love based This energy is the light force Of my soul You may choose to accept it You may choose to deny it But you may not kill it To dispose of it is not for you To accept it would be better The energy is a gift So you may walk with me Enjoy with me Help me Wander with me I am but a flicker The energy is a light I am offering the sharing Of a love to Dissipate our loneliness For , I never want to roam alone So, for all that it is worth to you Accept this symbolic love The energy is transferable Once, it moves on So will the love force To anyone who wants to accept This is a vow Of commitment For n...

How does it happen to me? Why can’t I contain this? It is so infectious It is filling my cup It overflows It is exploding It is not confined! I am not in control I cannot do anything else but Let it flow. I am bowled over I am erupting I am vibrating As if with the entire Universe My soul is expanding I want to be so close as blood in veins I want to be the pounding that is in the heart I want to flow as the spirit inside My Lord, do not forsake this love experience Of souls that are apart and have never met That have to go through the most explicit tortures That the two who have choices but seem to be motionless Unless by Your permission We seek Arduous succour Your Help we implore Ration this energy That we may be balanced and take control The heightening of senses is  excessive We can’t understand We try with all our might to ignore it The abundance Oh my goodness! It is true gold, beautiful That is saddens The sweetest nectar The warmest ...

Angel Hearer, You must know That I feel everything you do For although I understand whatever you have that bothers your mind Know that in your heart You will never be allowed To make the same mistakes as before Be not afraid and hold onto what you feel That LOVE is a blessing that Heaven has sent Because only HE knows what was in your heart As two souls we have met Now it’s time to make it set That one may follow the other That the other may lead well You, my Angel Hearer is the choice From the Universe To play this last part on the journey Caring, loving and healing That we may both benefit From a union of everlasting Companionship based on Unconditional love for all And from this Light of love We grow and bond To form one shape One forged energy A combustion of two units And becoming one Till that moment, My Angel Hearer We are still only half of one another. I wait until you are ready For what I know will be The momentous event That will be...

The destruction of hope By careless words Words unspoken, Written electronically Damages all future that could have been dreamt of These careless, non spoken words As if to a machine with no feelings Never even hesitating to think, Pressing the send button You cannot retrieve the cold notes I felt the pangs at once Now you ask me what’s wrong? Are you so callous and obtuse So drowned in your own loss That you forget the Living with feelings Are you so caught up in your own business Your own responsibilities That you realise, you cannot handle more I am in need of security and sustenance Not to be allocated when your time determines it I have realised that I am a fool A dreamer A mismatched Earthly pair with a soul bond A crisis for one so sensitive So astute and easily hurt I dare say, this is enough Enough time to know Enough time waiting Because for what am I waiting for? When firstly, there is no plan No intention And next, there has not been ...

Dear Lord!My Rabb! I have never felt it as intense as I do now I feel the wound so grievous The stabbing deep The pain is searing through the core of my being My soul is shattered My life force seems weakened I am in total silence Allowing the pain to take it’s course And hoping it will not take long To seal the gaping wound Imagine an arrow stuck in the heart and jarred out The blood  and loss of it Causing a semi conscious awareness Drifting in and out of consciousness Neither in this world Neither passed on Poor soul, battered once again She lays , simply lays there Not wanting anything but for it to stop There comes a vision A solace of some sort He is just suddenly in the picture A glimpse here and there What he brings with him Is healing She wants to be closer He cares so much He is filled with concern And giving his all He looks serious , also worried He stands not too tall, but taller than her, Stocky,muscles, well built Not old but not ...

Drowning in the depths of despair As loneliness engulfs A saddened soul deprived of attention A soul patient in waiting A soul summoning courage to battle Explosive waves of emotion A soul carried by the tide of grief A soul battered from war A soul exhausted A soul hungry for loving Drowning in the depths of sorrow Waiting in anguish Shadowed by broken promises Disillusioned by empty words Disdainful souls perpetrate goodness Ending syllables with love you Matters not when time comes for fulfilment Words bear no weight As honesty is the key Action the proof Souls of those who cannot take up The challenge And cannot follow through the guidance Be not so easy with fool hardy promises Taken to you are those broken vows As dishonest commitment break your ties of friendship even so now By this soul that has courage to face you And in plain honesty Will tell you how wrong you are To make light of a soul in need of love and care It is thereby the Universal r...

Dear Love Who are we to predict when you decide to visit us Who are we to push you away When you arrive with all goodness The blessings you bestow on two hearts To become one Who are we, to judge What is right and What is not For LOVE cannot be wrong Issues of the heart Is God’s gift to mankind To love and to care To support and cherish With each heartbeat Each cell of energy and chemistry Love is extraordinary Who are we to reject it With our minds When love is an emotion That is felt with the soul Two loves Two hearts Two diamonds merge As one shining golden star To become one. Make this bond a permanent abode Of this Earth and the next For a gift from Heaven Is made for owners of Pure hearts and souls. A union made by angel’s prayers The heart of Al Qur’an and the Light of God’s Love ~Lorraine Nur~

All my dreams and hopes are with you Only God knows when and how Sufficient for now To be a part of you Inviting me into Uniting in wisdom Forging a bond Creating a nuance Delicate soul, inspiring Sensitive soul, aspiring I long to feel your tenderness Harps whisperings for now You dear one, are Merely a thought Not real in my existing world A dream to become As I would hope for To quench my aridness To sweeten my moments To refresh my vision To strengthen my heart For love’s sake We suffer in silence For love’s sake we miss quietly For love we keep on dreaming And with love We hold on, hoping When and how We pray, God willing. ~Lorraine Nur~

In the early hours of dawn There was a commotion An entourage of seers People surrounding another Or two, darkness all around The were loud voices and pain The surrounds were bleak There must have been a village Of people surrounding the one in pain “Rabbana ighfir a’layna Rabbighfirli” “Oh My Lord, forgive us, Oh My Lord, forgive me.” The words I hear . The lone horse rider arrives on a great white horse Next moment , the two  are venturing A slow ride Two riders, through green mountains dotted with flowers As the sun rising from behind them casts their shadows The conversation between the two a friendly murmur As if known to one another for a long time Like two old friends who have not met For years One on a white steed the other dark brown The valley they travel , a peaceful one Their faces are not visible as they shine with light Their clothings are flowing It isn’t very clear The horses are bigger and taller than I Who witnesses The riders, o...

There must be ghosts in my attic Who try to keep me awake at night Who stamp their feet like elephants And pull chairs and tables. They live above me They make their presence known Each night they seem so active and busy Each day they pound away Why can’t they settle knowing I need sleep Just because they can’t? Oh you ghosts in my attic Surely, one day I shall go up to the twenty first floor Knock on your door And remind you, that you do have neighbours So, please be quiet! ~Humour~ LorraineNur

Oh my love My heart My light from the heavens Who hears the pure, sweet whispers Don’t leave me, before we cradle I am a mere vision without your touch Come to me To the waters of the great spans Enter into the crevices of the seas Oh sacred lover of nature The Queen of your heart Awaits you. Oh dweller in the eaves of day Let all the dew fall at dusk Awaiting most anxiously to be guided To see through your eyes and hear with your senses All the outcries that the pleasure of love does bring Oh wanderer on the Earth, Who seeks the aching heart of desire Arise for me once again and heave your soul against mine The depths of the oceans cannot compare To the depths of loving Wrapped in one sheet till the rising sun Together, in warmth In your brown eyes reflects The glow of the horizon Come, come to me Ease the pain of everlasting passions Have you sought and found The pleasures you now have The pearls and jewels of the oceans Are all for you My love ~L...

Aloft I am set to fly I want to explore the highest skies I want to swim the depths of Gorontola I want to dance under the moonlight I want to bask in the sunshine Of a thousand islands I want to dream as I have never dreamed I want to react with all the passion possible As I reach out to you, I cannot hold on long enough Before I start to rise again Swelling like the ocean waves Over and over The crests of white foamy waters crashing On a sun kissed sand The smell of pinecones, musky acacia Drift me off to a slumber Rested soul LorraineNur

1. Came, made a life, created a world that noone could interfere Then lost as would be one enticed Everything demolished by wrath and deceit 2.Fun and love, not really focused Yet tried Underlying tones of anger, insincerities and lies Demolished any future or hope 3.Came as a protector, withstood and endeavoured Though alone for a long time Perhaps isolation did not have A place in a partnership Demolished once again, insincerities and explosive emotions 4. Came with a package of love and goodness Soiled by intricate dishonesty and demolished by unforgiving inacceptance of circumstances 5. Thought the world finally realised Intellectually challenged but sincere and devout This was not to be so Although the excitement heightened each day As did the negativity in abundance Exploded and terminated any hope Abolishing all future Due to self pride and ego Devotions lacking, Spiritual starved By past life bitterness Unfocused by truth of life and dea...

I keep seeing you in my dreams What is it that makes you always connected? I see you each time in need You have such a deep pain It is deepening Into the very soul that you posses That piece of you You may never hide being your facade I see you in all that you are  I have accepted you for all that is you Perhaps in another life You will relive the regret That makes you still a part of many of my dreams Forget you that our souls always speak Forget you that this has always been in our case Your soul pines while you say you are fine But the dark sadness in your eyes Reveal as in the dreams  So much confusion and sadness A distress call he sends to me In real time, there is not much I can do So, I keep on seeing you in my dreams, Reaching out to me and then Walking away. ~LorraineNur~

Separation pain hurt and desires Causalities of love Emitted by distinction Emission of guilty secrets Of loving and of pain Conflicting emotions Fear and excitement Mixture of feelings Passive needs Wants, needs, desires Love enthralls all Mighty visions Dissipates, dissolves, blends Colours, auras,glows Incredible and mighty is love Through souls discourse We seek and call We radiate the signals And fusions real happens Combustion,burning a hole In the heart that caresses the soul love ~LorraineNur~

Embrace the sweetness and delights I serve to you from myself Explore unendlessly Timeless glorious ardour A fever, a rush Of liquid emotions from the inner depths of aching adoration Embrace the sweetness Embrace the energy Embrace me ~Lorraine Nur~

Can I have the moments Forever? To be only mine and yours together? Angel Hearer, Come home to me And be by my side For all that we have is just a whisper in the wind I have the vision of sweetness A honey which entices I have the cravings for sensual longings You mesmerize into my imagination My heart is beating fast Escalating with each word Of desire for you Each pore calling out to you Begging, then relishing Each anointed kiss Each stroke of light feathery touches Each stroke of gentleness Each caress Each breath of love And the yearning grows each day, minute, second Hasten to my side! ~LorraineNur~

Darkness engulfs the land As if a mysterious gathering held Then he appeared, from behind Taking me unawares His smoky eyes, Filled with a delight Unconditional love I see He zooms in closer To bestow a kiss I withhold him Standing firm, No I refuse I am keeping unstained For in my waiting There is a bigger gain Then, he smiles, as a knowing one may That I tell the truth Abide he does Outside a crowd gathers May we soon be? Lorraine Nur