I am non existent

ثَلاثَةٌ هُنَّ المُرُوءَةُ : جُودٌ مَعَ قِلَّة ، وَ احْتِمالٌ مِنْ غَيْرِ مَذَلَّة ، وَ تَعَفُّفٌ عَنِ المَسْألَةِ

Nobility is three traits: being generous although you have little to give, tolerating without being humiliated, and abstaining from asking for favors.

When you cherish someone you should cherish him moderately for he may be your enemy someday, and when you hate someone you should hate him moderately for he may be your friend someday. ~Imam Ali kw

I have pain the size of the entire Universe
To which now I drown myself in
I surpass all the levels that heightens this pain
And now I feel nothing
I am nothing compared to this vast void of black darkness
No shadows fall where I sit
In total surrender now I bear my soul
To You, my Lord
Nothing will save me nor them
No power have I over these blacken souls
Who diminish my existence
By a swat and flicker
I am non-existent
The way I was before I came onto this Earth
I am prepared to return
Non existent
As I was created merely to serve You
Now, I have been trashed and flung
On this very domain You put me in
And I have noone and no where else to return
So too, them who rag my existence
To ashes before
The earthly figure has been buried
This soul is tired on the path
I seek to be collected towards my goodness
To those who strive to attack and bury me alive
You, shall handle all these matters
I shall wait till Qiyaamah
I shall hope for shafaat
And justice
To all you souls, condemning and wicked
We shall wait and we shall know
One day, who was right and wrong
On the face of this Earth
~lorrainenur@2013