Refreshing life


To you I am as dead
I will not miss you
To me it’s as if you never came
I have felt as the dead , walking
I have felt the stabs of death
You have not
But you will
For now in total release it’s
As if I start again
I start afresh
I throw the rubbish out to sea
I start from the beginning again
I open a fresh page
Your troubles and tests
Are just beginning
As mine is now ending
From this chapter in my life
I will face other difficulties but those will be different
The longing and yearning will pass
As years pass, and the trials you go through
Will eventually prove a big lesson for all
As I move forward
I am waiting for death
To find me and
That is a destiny we shall all face
You have made the difficulties
Which I chose to face in my life
But you forgot that the choices are mine
The pain which will be caused
You face now, alone
To realise that the pain you caused was unbearable
So I have to walk away
Alone and with noone
I will forget
I will not dwell on the things I have no control over
And damned if I let you control me through it
And damned will I be to allow that pain to seep
I shall walk away quietly
And forget about all that ever existed
It is now just me
I am unburdened by the past

lorrainenur@2013

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