My Soul, My Life

No more justifications and altercations No more need to improvise The system is set when we make up our minds That we will continue as souls In higher forms In this life led That is trapped by time And a physical self No mobility is possible Without the mind stream and visions No changes may outcome, without the imagination We can move forward and watch Before we even make a movement This is the upper level of Soul consciousness Waiting for the one who is in follow That way is made and not to be Input as an obstacle Gear up and move out Move back or down The simple way is the best way Which speaks volumes is the heart In times of silence Time and space is then no longer the prison When there is a mighty understanding An interpretation What moves must change What lies dormant is dead Unification and alteration Destiny curves with no modifications Acceptance with flaws with the alls May be this is the time when all falls Into place as a Universal allot...

My bowl of oats becomes a wisdom A lesson about the sweetness of life Each day I make a bowl of porridge For me it is the emergency sustenance My body gets because I am forgetful about eating Thus, my blood sugar drops and my blood thins Causing the effect close to fainting As I make this daily ritual, I remember To thank Allah for simple sustenance Which has major benefits This simple bowl of oats Today, as Heaven may have it To enhance me with life skills I forgot to add, after the oats and water, some sweetened milk And as Heaven would have it, I ate my provision And scoffed, at the taste lacking sugar I instantly remembered a childhood episode When I stayed a night in hospital Had oats for breakfast the following morning, The gruel was such as now I taste A mere child with an unsweetened bowl of oats Such was a hospital experience Now, as the adult, with a similar fate I laughed as I scoffed, Ridiculed myself, at being forgetful Compared to the child, ...

My introduction to my forty seventh year As a spirit in human form A most humbling experience With no pomp or fare The day began as a normal day And filled with a gloom from within That on this day when I was born To wake alone With no smiles and hugs of young arms No love to share with a lover’s caress That this day a most humble moment I woke to realise We come alone into this world And we shall return to His side, as we arrived Alone But through that day, whispers, calls and messages Through space, came words and greetings Of joy and happiness And the day filled with blessings continued As children’s pureness and innocence Did shower a mother will pride Through unselfish love and care All they did, they did with unconditional love A mother’s true pride and joy resides In her children and their characters Of love plus joy An addiction to kisses and hugs Smiles and surprises As twice, blindfolded Two surprises unfolded From their own imagination Of w...

Our Eden Throughout all this misery Inspite of all the darkness That clouds our joy The garden of Eden we have made Will forever be in my mind In my heart, I only want you The love we have surpasses land and seas To be with you as I knew Is what I want forever To love you is not a choice I have The feelings cannot be erased The tests that our love must tolerate Is surely the most anguishing experience The tears flow with every thought Of how we love and The more I try to deny it The more I feel your love increase Your voice is shallow Your shine decreased Your soul is low Your shadow has grown Sweet soul, from my hours alone I have also lost all shine To part was not something I want Half of me resides with you How can I function as a whole? You still love me, I know You will be forever my Angel Hearer The one who arrived The one who gave all And fought so hard To keep it all I am weak and I fall Pick me up Hold me tight Like you will never let go...

When all is said and done The hope I had is gone I needed to wait and see The proof was to be What I base our next plan That would it even Eventuate Or it may be too late Somehow I knew what Was to take part I didn't want my heart To tear and jerk I was hopeful you could handle But I find no signs To the effect A man afraid with so much love Under pressure more than enough Dampens euphoria extinguishes All I have left is my self respect Knowledge that all my best came forth Although dirtied by false accusations Terrored by anger and judgments Keeping dignity we parted sadly Deep down knowing that it would be the end At least I have the intact mind To understand and not demand Although a right I would never use Allah knows best what would be the outcome Not because of human nature Laziness or forgetfulness He prepared what He knew would be Back to the comfort zone and free Now keeping up self dignity We would never be imploring Exploiting nor venturing Into a seiged territory Sa...

No more tears for the soulful For the cries that are unspoken will resound Till the highest Heavens And will echo out for all creation to hear The pains of the oppressed The cry of injustices The proclamation from the Universe Heralding The bands of Arch Angels To the Earth In all sympathy for the dejected Summarizing and enclosing In the safety of their prayers and participation Pouring justice Pouring strength and love Onto hearts that have been severed Anointing the foreheads with oils of Heaven’s healing Dear hearts, victims of the soiled minds Impersonating good but putrid flung Ghastly and disastrous, separation Forced by their terror and Finally dwelling in exclusive cells of disparaging circumstance. Know this day, one day, There is recompense Patience will guide us who persevere Hailing love still on a pole of goodness We the hope still left on the barren Earth ~LorraineNur~

“My love for you extends the highest rainbow ~ LorraineNur~5/11/2011 As we enter another phase We enter with full praise We allow Allah’s Love and Grace Guide us through angel’s whispers Oh sweet soul So dear to me In all my wanderings as a lone soul How far I have travelled to finally come To this special point To travel the road with you To venture where I have never been To seek and explore like never before Dear long lost soul A beacon in my life How far we travel I never know All I know Is that with you with me I am complete ~LorraineNur~ 19th Nov 2011

The world is a place with many trials Tribulations abundant without smiles Happiness scantly dispersed And quickly reversed The castles that are built Come crashing to a hilt Same when the heart is despondent Through aggravation and abandonment How lucky or unlucky we still strive To keep afloat and alive What the hopes resonant Through sweet words still redolent Hopes of a future bright Love and laughter to make it light The mild difficulties Till the highest In awe , I see many times In dismal hurt I am Forsaken by what most people have I always seem to salve They say that love luck Hinders fortune luck And the reverse As the old converse That hardship comes like bullets Pelting down hundreds As my dashed hopes, once again Becomes my life’s pain A brief union And an unpredictable future fusion ~LorraineNur~

The way to the heart and peace Is by forever eternal love That senses cannot fathom The way to eternal abode of love and peace Is through heart’s desire for Divine Love The way to Divine Love is through peaceful meditation and Light of Love The light of love shines from One eternal Source The source of all life The source of all peace The source of all comfort The source of all joy This is the way of perpetual Abundance and blessings The Way of the heart is not the way of the mind The way of peace and joy Are feelings Divine ~LorraineNur~

I feel love so great Stamped into my being I feel it in my bones We kiss and hug forever I just can’t get enough of you You smell so wonderful from head to toes I just want to cradle you where time seems motionless It took a long time but we’re nearly there Whatever you wish is what I want I wish for us to be in complete love and happiness In each other’s arms I fall into your open arms and melt I stare into your eyes All I see is your love I smell the sweetness of your breath I taste the lusciousness of your lips I am engraving your name in my soul My heart I give to you to cherish To look after as I will protect yours I know what you are afraid of Baby, just don’t let go I am yours forever to keep Take me, and never part. My body, mind and soul Finally, the equal I long awaited for Seems has revealed himself From month to month We argued, we cried , we shared Now, at last not just a vision any longer You are real and to be  the one I choose for ...

When I look at you When I see your face All my anger fades I melt There is something about your persona Your charisma and your aura That binds and holds me To hear you is a breath of life When in anger, disappointment In frustration of lost causes I try to delete you from my memory I erase all effects of what Reminds me of you I fail to feel better Because you are engraved in my heart And, then I see your face I melt And all I can then feel is, LOVE ~LorraineNur~

Nobody really wants to know Nor make any effort to grow In all difficulties It’s too easy To shun responsibilities In order to be provoked One gives permission to invoke In most cases Sad as it is The ones that say I love you Are not always true Because LOVE is a feeling Not a mere greeting LOVE is to prove That you make the move To become one And when that’s done You will surely see That LOVE is to be. ~Lorraine Nur~

Once mankind used senses and heart Now, mankind has been deafened and hard Mankind chooses not to hear The calling of nature’s clear I once had an angel hearer Now he has chosen to disappear He used to laugh and love with me But behold, poisoned he now doesn’t see He used to feel and understand What I sent from deep heart’s bent Angels like to speak to the heart of the pure Not contaminated or unsure Angel’s whisper to offer love Because the order comes from above Angel seekers must be wary The devils are also many Once you hear the angel’s voices Make sure to protect yourselves from vices The only soiled thoughts are the ones That you put in your minds The angels whispers speak so softly Affects the heart and soul most purely So, if you want to always hear them Make sure you also like them Never ever disown them Never ever disbelieve in them Once, the angel’s talk with man It will fever the bodies but cool the hearts The ones that know shall never part ...

On this Earth I am left To walk and to help On this Earth for so long I have been wandering The lone soul The searching soul Each soul bears a signature An energy marking This is consistent  and It will be recognised By the same energy The frequencies charged do bear The same radiated light This energy Is a form of companionship This energy is love based This energy is the light force Of my soul You may choose to accept it You may choose to deny it But you may not kill it To dispose of it is not for you To accept it would be better The energy is a gift So you may walk with me Enjoy with me Help me Wander with me I am but a flicker The energy is a light I am offering the sharing Of a love to Dissipate our loneliness For , I never want to roam alone So, for all that it is worth to you Accept this symbolic love The energy is transferable Once, it moves on So will the love force To anyone who wants to accept This is a vow Of commitment For n...

How does it happen to me? Why can’t I contain this? It is so infectious It is filling my cup It overflows It is exploding It is not confined! I am not in control I cannot do anything else but Let it flow. I am bowled over I am erupting I am vibrating As if with the entire Universe My soul is expanding I want to be so close as blood in veins I want to be the pounding that is in the heart I want to flow as the spirit inside My Lord, do not forsake this love experience Of souls that are apart and have never met That have to go through the most explicit tortures That the two who have choices but seem to be motionless Unless by Your permission We seek Arduous succour Your Help we implore Ration this energy That we may be balanced and take control The heightening of senses is  excessive We can’t understand We try with all our might to ignore it The abundance Oh my goodness! It is true gold, beautiful That is saddens The sweetest nectar The warmest ...

Angel Hearer, You must know That I feel everything you do For although I understand whatever you have that bothers your mind Know that in your heart You will never be allowed To make the same mistakes as before Be not afraid and hold onto what you feel That LOVE is a blessing that Heaven has sent Because only HE knows what was in your heart As two souls we have met Now it’s time to make it set That one may follow the other That the other may lead well You, my Angel Hearer is the choice From the Universe To play this last part on the journey Caring, loving and healing That we may both benefit From a union of everlasting Companionship based on Unconditional love for all And from this Light of love We grow and bond To form one shape One forged energy A combustion of two units And becoming one Till that moment, My Angel Hearer We are still only half of one another. I wait until you are ready For what I know will be The momentous event That will be...

The destruction of hope By careless words Words unspoken, Written electronically Damages all future that could have been dreamt of These careless, non spoken words As if to a machine with no feelings Never even hesitating to think, Pressing the send button You cannot retrieve the cold notes I felt the pangs at once Now you ask me what’s wrong? Are you so callous and obtuse So drowned in your own loss That you forget the Living with feelings Are you so caught up in your own business Your own responsibilities That you realise, you cannot handle more I am in need of security and sustenance Not to be allocated when your time determines it I have realised that I am a fool A dreamer A mismatched Earthly pair with a soul bond A crisis for one so sensitive So astute and easily hurt I dare say, this is enough Enough time to know Enough time waiting Because for what am I waiting for? When firstly, there is no plan No intention And next, there has not been ...

Dear Lord!My Rabb! I have never felt it as intense as I do now I feel the wound so grievous The stabbing deep The pain is searing through the core of my being My soul is shattered My life force seems weakened I am in total silence Allowing the pain to take it’s course And hoping it will not take long To seal the gaping wound Imagine an arrow stuck in the heart and jarred out The blood  and loss of it Causing a semi conscious awareness Drifting in and out of consciousness Neither in this world Neither passed on Poor soul, battered once again She lays , simply lays there Not wanting anything but for it to stop There comes a vision A solace of some sort He is just suddenly in the picture A glimpse here and there What he brings with him Is healing She wants to be closer He cares so much He is filled with concern And giving his all He looks serious , also worried He stands not too tall, but taller than her, Stocky,muscles, well built Not old but not ...

Drowning in the depths of despair As loneliness engulfs A saddened soul deprived of attention A soul patient in waiting A soul summoning courage to battle Explosive waves of emotion A soul carried by the tide of grief A soul battered from war A soul exhausted A soul hungry for loving Drowning in the depths of sorrow Waiting in anguish Shadowed by broken promises Disillusioned by empty words Disdainful souls perpetrate goodness Ending syllables with love you Matters not when time comes for fulfilment Words bear no weight As honesty is the key Action the proof Souls of those who cannot take up The challenge And cannot follow through the guidance Be not so easy with fool hardy promises Taken to you are those broken vows As dishonest commitment break your ties of friendship even so now By this soul that has courage to face you And in plain honesty Will tell you how wrong you are To make light of a soul in need of love and care It is thereby the Universal r...

Dear Love Who are we to predict when you decide to visit us Who are we to push you away When you arrive with all goodness The blessings you bestow on two hearts To become one Who are we, to judge What is right and What is not For LOVE cannot be wrong Issues of the heart Is God’s gift to mankind To love and to care To support and cherish With each heartbeat Each cell of energy and chemistry Love is extraordinary Who are we to reject it With our minds When love is an emotion That is felt with the soul Two loves Two hearts Two diamonds merge As one shining golden star To become one. Make this bond a permanent abode Of this Earth and the next For a gift from Heaven Is made for owners of Pure hearts and souls. A union made by angel’s prayers The heart of Al Qur’an and the Light of God’s Love ~Lorraine Nur~

All my dreams and hopes are with you Only God knows when and how Sufficient for now To be a part of you Inviting me into Uniting in wisdom Forging a bond Creating a nuance Delicate soul, inspiring Sensitive soul, aspiring I long to feel your tenderness Harps whisperings for now You dear one, are Merely a thought Not real in my existing world A dream to become As I would hope for To quench my aridness To sweeten my moments To refresh my vision To strengthen my heart For love’s sake We suffer in silence For love’s sake we miss quietly For love we keep on dreaming And with love We hold on, hoping When and how We pray, God willing. ~Lorraine Nur~

In the early hours of dawn There was a commotion An entourage of seers People surrounding another Or two, darkness all around The were loud voices and pain The surrounds were bleak There must have been a village Of people surrounding the one in pain “Rabbana ighfir a’layna Rabbighfirli” “Oh My Lord, forgive us, Oh My Lord, forgive me.” The words I hear . The lone horse rider arrives on a great white horse Next moment , the two  are venturing A slow ride Two riders, through green mountains dotted with flowers As the sun rising from behind them casts their shadows The conversation between the two a friendly murmur As if known to one another for a long time Like two old friends who have not met For years One on a white steed the other dark brown The valley they travel , a peaceful one Their faces are not visible as they shine with light Their clothings are flowing It isn’t very clear The horses are bigger and taller than I Who witnesses The riders, o...

There must be ghosts in my attic Who try to keep me awake at night Who stamp their feet like elephants And pull chairs and tables. They live above me They make their presence known Each night they seem so active and busy Each day they pound away Why can’t they settle knowing I need sleep Just because they can’t? Oh you ghosts in my attic Surely, one day I shall go up to the twenty first floor Knock on your door And remind you, that you do have neighbours So, please be quiet! ~Humour~ LorraineNur

Oh my love My heart My light from the heavens Who hears the pure, sweet whispers Don’t leave me, before we cradle I am a mere vision without your touch Come to me To the waters of the great spans Enter into the crevices of the seas Oh sacred lover of nature The Queen of your heart Awaits you. Oh dweller in the eaves of day Let all the dew fall at dusk Awaiting most anxiously to be guided To see through your eyes and hear with your senses All the outcries that the pleasure of love does bring Oh wanderer on the Earth, Who seeks the aching heart of desire Arise for me once again and heave your soul against mine The depths of the oceans cannot compare To the depths of loving Wrapped in one sheet till the rising sun Together, in warmth In your brown eyes reflects The glow of the horizon Come, come to me Ease the pain of everlasting passions Have you sought and found The pleasures you now have The pearls and jewels of the oceans Are all for you My love ~L...

Aloft I am set to fly I want to explore the highest skies I want to swim the depths of Gorontola I want to dance under the moonlight I want to bask in the sunshine Of a thousand islands I want to dream as I have never dreamed I want to react with all the passion possible As I reach out to you, I cannot hold on long enough Before I start to rise again Swelling like the ocean waves Over and over The crests of white foamy waters crashing On a sun kissed sand The smell of pinecones, musky acacia Drift me off to a slumber Rested soul LorraineNur

1. Came, made a life, created a world that noone could interfere Then lost as would be one enticed Everything demolished by wrath and deceit 2.Fun and love, not really focused Yet tried Underlying tones of anger, insincerities and lies Demolished any future or hope 3.Came as a protector, withstood and endeavoured Though alone for a long time Perhaps isolation did not have A place in a partnership Demolished once again, insincerities and explosive emotions 4. Came with a package of love and goodness Soiled by intricate dishonesty and demolished by unforgiving inacceptance of circumstances 5. Thought the world finally realised Intellectually challenged but sincere and devout This was not to be so Although the excitement heightened each day As did the negativity in abundance Exploded and terminated any hope Abolishing all future Due to self pride and ego Devotions lacking, Spiritual starved By past life bitterness Unfocused by truth of life and dea...

I keep seeing you in my dreams What is it that makes you always connected? I see you each time in need You have such a deep pain It is deepening Into the very soul that you posses That piece of you You may never hide being your facade I see you in all that you are  I have accepted you for all that is you Perhaps in another life You will relive the regret That makes you still a part of many of my dreams Forget you that our souls always speak Forget you that this has always been in our case Your soul pines while you say you are fine But the dark sadness in your eyes Reveal as in the dreams  So much confusion and sadness A distress call he sends to me In real time, there is not much I can do So, I keep on seeing you in my dreams, Reaching out to me and then Walking away. ~LorraineNur~

Separation pain hurt and desires Causalities of love Emitted by distinction Emission of guilty secrets Of loving and of pain Conflicting emotions Fear and excitement Mixture of feelings Passive needs Wants, needs, desires Love enthralls all Mighty visions Dissipates, dissolves, blends Colours, auras,glows Incredible and mighty is love Through souls discourse We seek and call We radiate the signals And fusions real happens Combustion,burning a hole In the heart that caresses the soul love ~LorraineNur~

Embrace the sweetness and delights I serve to you from myself Explore unendlessly Timeless glorious ardour A fever, a rush Of liquid emotions from the inner depths of aching adoration Embrace the sweetness Embrace the energy Embrace me ~Lorraine Nur~

Can I have the moments Forever? To be only mine and yours together? Angel Hearer, Come home to me And be by my side For all that we have is just a whisper in the wind I have the vision of sweetness A honey which entices I have the cravings for sensual longings You mesmerize into my imagination My heart is beating fast Escalating with each word Of desire for you Each pore calling out to you Begging, then relishing Each anointed kiss Each stroke of light feathery touches Each stroke of gentleness Each caress Each breath of love And the yearning grows each day, minute, second Hasten to my side! ~LorraineNur~

Darkness engulfs the land As if a mysterious gathering held Then he appeared, from behind Taking me unawares His smoky eyes, Filled with a delight Unconditional love I see He zooms in closer To bestow a kiss I withhold him Standing firm, No I refuse I am keeping unstained For in my waiting There is a bigger gain Then, he smiles, as a knowing one may That I tell the truth Abide he does Outside a crowd gathers May we soon be? Lorraine Nur

My evening star Where are you? I am in need to see Your twinkling glitter from up high That guides me. Where are you my shining star? Don't leave me now I am hurting I am crying I am bleeding My heart is torn My heart aches That you are never going to be As close as I want you to be That you will always be ,just a shine A twinkle, a glimmer From afar, you guide me That's all you can do For that is a magic and a gift But that I can't hold you nor touch you And I can never keep you As my special star For you were made for all To see and enjoy Like all stars map the pathways Shining star, map mine And show me towards the one who looks at you Like I do ~LorraineNur~

As time spans It shall never wait Take up your opportunities As they present themselves For all that is blessed,is good Time shall move on And you shall get older And the opportunities will pass You cannot retrieve,nor can you regret Your decisions Your choices Your life is limited You have to make the very best Of all the offerings that Heaven bestows Take the best from all that presents itself Your choices based on love and also on intelligence Rationality and wisdom Love should never hurt With it comes many blessings With it comes many miracles As love is a magical potion Which can consume you And make you drunk That time means nothing The place is mysterious A secret of life A recipe of happiness As time moves on ~Lorraine Nur~

With love, it does not matter what the relationship is To help,to give, to share, to enjoy From a distance or close Love is binding for all With love, it does not matter what plans you make To be blessed each day with a loved one To share each day with family To give with all A gift of love Not compromising nor holding back Be free to love and give your full heart And no strings attached No ownership No ties binding Love advocates freedom of feeling Nurturing this is essential For a peaceful soul Capture moments when timely Smitten by precious memories Create everlasting clips of visual love Whispering magical words of love As a forest of vastness As an ocean span As horizons never fade Make LOVE the anchor in LIFE Appreciate and not deviate Be grateful and give thanks For you have been blessed with a gift From Heaven ~LorraineNur~

I once had a love I waited for I waited for seven long years My love said he’d be here I waited each year Hopeful and excited The seven years have passed And so is the love As all fairytales must end The prince never came I once had a love Over the seas proclaimed his unselfish devotion to me alone Oh foolish love Decayed and never grew through seven forbidden years all hope never renewed So, now there is a new love that I hope seven years it does not take for it to eventuate Though, I am uncertain If it will be true. ~LorraineNur~

Love, my love is a feeling that transcends To all I meet with honour I share Love, the emotion that can create Such disillusions and complexities Love, a giving from a pure heart Ending not, forever engraved Love, my gift for your love in return Is not the prerequisite I love for His sake I share for His sake I need for His sake I engulf the love, for His sake. Love, a feeling that has no definition Love, an abode for rest and peace Love, an incredible gift to bestow Love, acceptance and gratitude Love, is the circle that binds us all Love, will uplift when we know how Love, my love I give to you Please nurture and fuel Purely and innocently Love, clean and fresh Will overcome us Make us delirious Make us drunk Make us shy Make us high Make us love more and more Love has no ending and no beginning Love is just a feeling but That feeling is a nourishment of Your heart and soul. ~Lorraine Nur~ Love,Peace & Light

Lessons shared  Love arised How am I then not surprised Afterall the words spoken No factual evidence Of all the stories revealed Not basic commonsense How can I not wonder What then becomes of me? The time I needed to hear your voice To hear your words of comfort The time I most needed you, You were too busy in your lifestyle To offer any support Yet in a challenge of thoughts and choice A quick revert was accepted A quick cut off and cure Yet, love is mentioned and an acceptance made Sure as soon as a moment arised A judgement fell!  I am in need but I am not handicapped I am hoping for better But I am not desperate I am realistic I cannot survive on mere words  Dreams and uncommited vows I make my plans and make the changes My emotions rule my head at times I feed off your love  I feed off your attention , so gentle I want you always beside me And that is one reality That will never be For somebody that belongs to everybody I need somebody, just for...

Tomorrow,when the sun rises Everything will be different The days will seem longer The sunshine less bright Butterflies will stay hidden The green glass will fade The air will slug The skies turn grey Tomorrow, when a new day starts All that glowed will dull All speech will be a blur Each step will be in wonder Each thought will be of you Every moment has been in waiting Until the wait, too much to bear Opened a window to a future Of constant waiting Of waiting with a hope Which may never appear The moments of wasting in ardent wait Left scars of insecurity One soul learnt a new love Which love descended And soon went away Unfortunate and sorrowful Did then the mate, muddled Confused and baited Turned on another source of solace To uncover some comfort for a moment Not because of nafs But for care Not able to hurt and feeling compassion Without judgement Tomorrow emerges and the drone of life Whispers.

I treasure my time alone Yet,I am miserable by myself I would be enjoying some company If it would be the kind that I like How I hate it when that missing feeling emerges Because I remember all the good times However to compromise myself and principles I would choose to face the lonliness How I dislike the challenge To ponder on options and choices The energy used zaps me And I remain muddled I convince myself that it is for my benefit To sit hear and lavish the time alone Yet, I really don't want to be by myself at all In defiance would I gather myself and wage A warfare on silence and lonliness Only to learn, I have gained nothing I must then sit alone to ponder The effects of irrational behaviour The coming back to settle on one self Sitting alone and yearning A whole more than zero. LorraineNur

Oh the woes of life Leaving behind trails of bittersweetness As if a melancholy drifter Never able to settle. I travel as a seeker Searching for a truth That I believe exist Among the clans of humanity I search for the light in the midst of darkest moments In the serenity of the night In the peaceful hours of dawn The rising sun beckons the new start The journey unending Never shall I give up My serach for the love The energy of life Enough for me till I return To bear with all woes of life

Dialah benteng dosa2 lalu: Is he the protector and the guide It maybe that he is the answer to prayers It may be that he has been picked to succeed where Noone else has He is the divider from past sins Sounds a renewed purpose A cleansing Appeared from no where Suddenly present , ever reminding Constantly and sincerely "benteng" means fortress,fort,castle,bastille The imam that I asked for has appeared The guidance , the stronghold, the support No matter distance , Parted and never set eyes on him I see him, As he sits in quiet contemplation He is the fortress between the past ~LorraineNur~

My mind is the wonderland Where love may prevail Where the senses exhale and inhale It is the place where I express In it I make all goodness the main way of life In this wonderland, I make the pictures I make the events I create the outcomes I am the artist I am the composer I am the conductor I am the actor In this beautiful wonderland I enrich myself I gift myself I raise myself To make the wonderland of my mind A world through which My reality transforms I bring the wonderland of my mind To the reality of my world I then enjoin all souls into this realm Where Love flows freely And where your existence is possible Through pure love and consciousness. ~LorraineNur~

Allah humma shalli wa sallim alaa Sayyidina Muhammaddin Shalaatan taghfiru biha dzunuub wa tuslihu bihal quluub wa tatantaliqul buhal ussub wa tuliinul biha suub wa alaa aalihi wa sahbihi wa man ilaihi mansuub... (Shalawat hb.Shaleh tanggul)

Somebody's caught my eye Caught my strings and each movement Words resonates a voice That I don't hear That makes my heart beat, a beat faster My ears warms to the harsh But caressing sounds How exciting! Smiling a while Holding a while A mere reflection from across the seas Hoarse laughter Gentle touch A look that penetrates A quiver that rises That impersonates Is this how love Translates? ~LorraineNur~

The eyes grow weary and sleep is imminent Will he ever wake up again? The heart is heavy as the breathing deepens Will he ever see the light of day? The nights and days merge in one He isn’t aware if there is a sun Or if the moon is cradled The heat and dust swivels all around The animals are all gone The insects crawl The fly sits, mouth drying His arms beckon a vision unseen As if to take a cup to drink Over the other side it seems it’s winter But here in Somalia We are left dying Suffering, inescapable death There has been no hope as he travelled The road from one day to the next Only to arrive at this spot of dryness and heat No water wells No, rain, no clouds of darkness Just the stench of grim fear and loss Oh Allah, give them rain , Hear my pleas and prayers Hear their pleas and prayers For no doubt with cause there is a reason Testing the compassion of humanity If the rest would think to give and share Surely, there must be a reason A wisdom T...

Daydreams forever It makes for constant state of peace To be in unison always In touch with beauty and oneness Of all that exudes heavenly scents To be encasted within a whole Not to be recognised from the outside Prized and possessed by form Mental and intellect diminished The eyes see only what is apparent. 28thApril, 2011 ~Lorraine Nur ~

The waning heart of a sick soul The unfed soul kept hidden The soul which lacks it's nourishment remains as if in death He cannot move and has no say He is left to deteriorate and decay He wants to ignite the vigour and energy But he cannot, chained and bound By the dirt and filth of Nafs. Nafs , a hateful and aggravating A disease of the heart, soul and mind Nafs , a whisper of infection From words to defile It causes a sickness virus Which consumes and eats Everything that is good within. Nafs attacks Ruh Nafs regurgitates Ruh Nafs dismembers and hurts Ruh Nafs kills Ruh. Food of the soul ALLAH HU ALLAH A truly effortless choice An inbuilt mechanism Triggering will, instantly explode A monsterous surge of healing power Yielding a sword, Ruh kills Nafs Wielding the banner of ALLAH HU ALLAH For only this is the cure for all infections caused by Nafs Only in this is the healing And in only this is the power ALLAH HU ALLAH HU ALLAH HU ALLAH! Fi...

I feel there is something about to happen Something which we have long awaited For years we have been told about this event To herald new beginnings What I see is goodness Faces full of smiles I also see some darkness Of which we must know To get to the Light We must first know where darkness lies Thread with care Searching the way Many pits and falls Many tricks and lies Many deceptions Many ruins To reach the light , we have to cross , Go through the darkness There we will need strength in tribes Strength of self but together Individuals yet compact We defend and protect In this force, we will be kept safe The Light will soon be seen The Nur of beings The Nur of all nurs Comradeship, help, defense Protection and justice for all Woes and pains will go Once the Nur will arrive There are many tales Many hidden mysteries Perhaps my information could render relief They said he is born May 2011 They say he is a baby a...

Time, so precious it is as gold Time, when abused can harm ones soul Time when given do hold it safe For time that has passed Is gone forever Don’t rush through your day That you feel wasted That tiredness will consume you And the stresses heaped upon A soul travelling only momentarily What’s it all about? Begone the negative aspects of worldly goods Chase not for the sake of consumption With the assumption That all the material wealth We leave behind Better make haste and secure What wealth cannot buy A peaceful heart, a good natured temperament A bright, cheery smile A sincere intention Your good health and your happiness Lie in your ability to think clearly Be prayerful, hold on to faith Knowing full well, this is the way Of the awakened souls Partake in the world as if you will be here only for a moment Chase the next eternal destination Work for that as if tomorrow will be the end Time, is moving and passing quickly Then one day, all will stop Th...

One juz in 2.5 hours, insyaallah I will khatam this year after 7 years. Oh Allah make it easy for me to subdue emotions,to feel Your Mercy. Khatam Al Quran in the holy month of Ramadan, insyaallah. A juz a day. The angels descended at Tarawih, the Earth is filled with their presence, they will look for the gatherings, of ones who remember their Lord. The night of Ramadan is cool, the Earth is blessed. The nights hereon will be, initiated by their presence, make your niat and doa the best. Solat of the muslim is the submission of His servants, the solat of a muslim is the goodness on earth for all mankind;fasting fisabillilah. The shivers of joy runs through the veins of the seeker who seeks his Lord in the nights of the holy month only for His pleasure. How do you know your Rabb? How will you be responsible?When a seeker finds His Lord, all devotions become a part of life.Unconditional. And when the curtain of conscience parts,there we shall behold, a spark of nur, a ...

Life? Are you playing tricks with me? Have you put on the rose tinted shades So, I only see all the good That life, did you want me to keep being happy Serving and helping even to those that deem no help needed? Life? Did you say to me just keep doing the best no matter what but at times I feel such a failure  That I try very hard never to be judgemental And others keep me down Oh Life, most times I do see and feel the good But on the days the shades are removed I do see but I cannot understand Life, you are such a precious commodity You are an inspiration And you will only be with me for a while Perhaps when I meet Afterlife, I won't be needing these glasses any more. Thank you Life for loving me. ~LorraineNur~

Anger overcame me as I sat and listened Words which did not connect and did not make sense Words that contradicted and sometimes sounded so cold I wondered about human nature I tried so hard to understand Not to make excuses but sincerely tried to become Empathic and compassionate I made a conscious decision To bask in positivity To create and bubble myself in an atmosphere of glee I would bounce off negativity and protect myself from it's ill effects I told myself to always remain calm and collected Not hasty to react I promised to be good to myself and love myself That I could then spread this joy from within to the outer realms of my world I realised that all this takes a conscious efforts to be agreeable and open To never waver In order to withstand all the woes I need to sustain me Then I would have the mustered strength To glow as a lamp of light Alas' the moment when the last energy strand remains A blast of heated and senseless attack Diminshes me...

How wonderful it would be that the world would come to peace How wonderful if the children could have a guarantee How wonderful would it be if all involved could have hypnosis To regress back to their childhood How wonderful if they could remember And then take responsibility to ensure the end of wars and violence As I sit watching sad and angelic faces of the little ones They listen in awe about being good and kind As if it is foreign to them For all the conditioning that they posess Is from a world filled with violent hatered and racism Their world filled with carelessness and disinterest A world filled with self imposed laws to succeed no matter what the costs How they gleam with the words of a story that project hope and kindness Their faces light up and smile with hope How easy it is for us to ignore their voices To tell them to be seen and not heard The facts are not such as children of the new millenium Have more than we did in the hippy ages In the stone age...

I watch events that happen Moments that embed in our minds I watch my world developing around me And fit in where I most am in need It seems to me that timing is not mine Nor the plan in action part of my itinery I watch and diagnose Where shall I be next ? I cannot preplan When I surrender I allow the messages to flow and guide To be in service of love to all A servant has no want or desires After making many adjustments to try and suit The best play in life Is to just be! I shift here alittle Sift and save energy After all attempts through life I have learnt that I can't do it all So my house of cards must be built Carefully and intelligently Using love and patience Let the deck be arranged Properly and intuitively If it so happens that some may fall In the attempt, all I need to do is pick them up And rearrange them where they fit As I am only a small card in my deck called life Yet although, one I am still important to the pack ~LorraineNur~